...having fun

...just like a little kid, i played in the rain last nite...it was still raining (quite heavily) when i finished my tarawih prayer at the mosque...but instead of waiting for the rain to stop i went thru the heavy rain with my motorbike (scooterbike actually)...the mosque was about 1.5km away from my house...so i was all wet when i reached home but i think i was having fun...then relaxing at home (after a quick shower) with a hot milo and a cigarette updating my blog...its cool (or maybe cold ha3)...kinda release the day tension...

...momentum

...somehow i've lost my momentum over the past few weeks...i'm just feeling empty and blank...i know i'm a fighter, just like my mum, and always ready to work things out but this time i felt like i've somehow lost my passion and believe...this battle is not even worth a fight...i’ve tried hard, in fact very hard but i’ve lost the enjoyment of doing what i love to do...it's gonna be difficult but i believe i really need a break to regain my strength...to get back my passion and peace for me to enjoy my life and my academic work again...i believe it’s not worth the sacrifice anymore but looking back I’ve learned a lot during the whole journey as a Dean…i believe i now have better understanding about people, about management, and more importantly about life...may Allah bless us all

...forthrightness and truthfulness

...prof lord eatwell said we are too polite...i think i can agree with him...in fact (in most cases) that was our main weakness...which slow us down from moving forward and fast...we are so afraid to hurt other people's feeling even tho we know that is the right thing to do...i guess we need to change that...forthrightness and truthfulness are two important elements if we really want to move ahead...tho i also believe that sometimes, in a special occasion, it is better to be kind than to be right...at the end of the day one needs to look at the bigger picture to make a wise decision...then insyaAllah we can, together, realize our dreams...

...compromises

...had one of the toughest meeting on thursday...the issue of separation between college of business and graduate school of business...how both parties can complement each other (rather than competing) to help achieve the vision and mission of the university...it requires big compromises between the two parties...a bit of a sensitive issue...as both want to move forward...it is also hard to make people understand the fact that the criteria for TBS and RU is contradicted...hence requires a different business model...alhamdulillah tho the meeting was a bit tense sometimes...as we all agreed to say whatever we wanna say to solve the issue...it ended in a good faith...the next and bigger challenge is to convince the big boss...remember what Leo Moggie said "politic is about the management of compromises"...so i believe management is about the politic of compromises...so much to learn ha3

...GIGO

...last sunday, i attended the longest senate meeting ever which lasted about 8 hours...among the issues discussed was the quality of our students...quite a lengthy and head cracking discussion...lack of support, lack of monitoring system, lack of this and lack of that...funny because the answer is very simple...the main problem is the input...we take in garbage so we produce garbage...GIGO...after 27 years we need to change our model from quantity model to quality model...done

...time, trust and support

...to succeed, other than self-belief and a good team, one needs time, trust and support from the top, if you don't get that, don't waste your time...it is time to go and find a new challenge

...patience, passion and believe

...work is about patience, passion and believe...once we lose them it is about time for us to let go and change...and find a new challenge

...good friend

...its nearly 11pm...stopped by at mamak restaurant for teh tarik after tarawih prayer...not ready to sleep yet...so i read my student's PhD thesis...he's also my good friend...been in his 3rd year now but is still struggling with his proposal...it's never easy supervising your good friend...wish i could help him more...but PhD is about independent work...he's a brilliant guy with great ideas but having problem to put his great ideas in writing...but at least i read his proposal with a smile now...good work...have produced 3 PhDs so far...the fourth one is nearly completing his thesis...hope my good friend will be the lucky no. 5...

...my little girl

...today is the first day of fasting month...my little one is also fasting...she's 8 years old...she told me few times that she wanna break her fast...first during lunch time about 1pm...but her good friend (7 years old) is still fasting and going strong...so she continues with her fast...second when its nearly 7pm...she looks very tired but then its nearly time to break fast...so she continues...sleeping helplessly on my lap...finally i can see her smiling again...7.38pm its time to break fast...good girl aneesa...i know you can do it...